so simple

it snowed again, for two days in a row.
then today, warmth.
and I found little green shoots in my garden.
a simple reminder, an important, and ever taught, lesson.
I smiled.

if only if only.........

if only I could touch the stars
if only I could see your face
if only I could hear your voice beside me
my heart would not hurt so.

if only I could travel through time
if only I could fly through the sky
if only I could be there in the blink of an eye
my heart would not hurt me so.

but if only I had never had you
if only you were not part of my life
if only I had not seen you grow
my life would have no meaning

you are my sunshine and my rain
my sorrow and my greatest joy
my inspiration to be
and my hope to go on.

you are my greatest achievement
my most spectacular creation
my warmth, my laughter, my smiles
you are everything I aspire to be worthy of.

I miss you, no doubt
I think of you constantly, each day, each hour
you are filled with promise and future
and I never regret a moment I have had with you.

But in truth I do... regret harsh words and anger
In truth I cannot take back some things I have said
But you in truth, I know you will learn
From my mistakes in raising you.

Because in truth, you are my everything.
My every day.
My every wonder.
My darling loves...all three of you.

xo
Mom

so....

how are you all doing?